Now, I am freaking out with thoughts like: what if he can't get food or water, what if the looting and violence becomes so bad that he is hurt or even killed, what if he seriously hurts his back while trying to help someone and he can't get the medical care he needs (he had back surgery a few months before leaving for the MTC), what if the next after shock is bigger than the last and he is not as lucky this time, what if all of the tragic things he is seeing will change him so profoundly that we won't even know him when he comes home, etc.
Nobody wins when we play the 'what if' game!
I just read this online (I really would be better off if I would turn off the t.v. and internet):
"Of the 708 reported dead as of Sunday afternoon, 541 had died in Chile's Maule region, and 64 in the Bio Bio region, both in south-central Chile."
Curico is in the Maule region. Chance is in Curico.
Mondays are the days he usually e-mails us. Tomorrow will be a very sad Monday because I am sure we won't be hearing from him. How many more sad Mondays will we have? How long will we have to wait before we hear again that he is okay? I hate the feeling of helplessness that I feel. He is down there, so far away from us, and there is NOTHING we can do to protect him. I want to fly down there and pick him up and bring him home where I know he will be safe. Big sisters are supposed to look out for their little brothers and all I can do right now is cry and hope and pray that God will look out for my little brother who is not just a brother-he is truly one of my best friends.
4 comments:
I know without a doubt that our Father in Heaven is mindful of the things that are happening there. It is so normal and natural for you to want to take him away from all of that. I know that the Church is like an umbrella covering the efforts of the missionaries. They will make sure they are accounted for and healthy and fed. I'm so sorry that you are experiencing that helplessness but I know there is an outpouring of faith and prayers for the people of Chili and especially the missionaries and members of the church. We love you.
After being a missionary, I can promise you that missionaries are protected! Please don't worry Nat. We are praying for him!
I'm sorry Nat. I bet it is so hard for you! I would probably be the same way if I were you. We will continue to pray for him. Love you!
Okay, I read the good news post first but I'm still crying just thinking about the heartache you must have had from all the worries you had in this post! So so so so glad that he is okay!
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